After giving her a ride and dropping her off at the door, I found the nearest parking spot I could and hurriedly put the car in park. Unable to hold them back, tears of joy flowed uncontrollably. Words of Scripture the Lord had been speaking for months over me, flooded my mind. I sat there praising my Savior for both the sweet encounter and His confirmation. And, for the first time, I was not only star- struck by having just met my favorite author, but more importantly, I was awe-struck and love-struck by my Heavenly Father. What started as a fleeting thought the night before, hoping to meet her someday, the Lord arranged a divine appointment in the front seat of my car the next morning. And, as if that wasn’t enough, the Lord in His greatness, is allowing me to be invited to her home this summer!
It truly has been incredible to watch the hand of the Lord display His miracles in my life as He continues to confirm the call of writing in it. The things He has done to prove this call have been so remarkable that He just may as well have sent an angel of the Lord to tell me! Yet, as great as His miracles have been, I still find myself wrestling with unbelief.
In June, I am planning to attend a writers conference that this author invited me to. As I replay in my mind the events of that miraculous encounter, I can clearly see now that it was the Lord who ultimately invited me. One of my assignments that I was given to prepare me for the conference was to create a professional Facebook page. The hardest thing for me to do was to put “writer” under my name. It seems absurd to me, seeing I have no credentials to back it up. For days I wrestled with labeling myself a writer.
As I prayed and sought the Lord for guidance, He brought to mind one of my favorite verses, Isaiah 7: 9. The Lord says, “Unless your faith is firm, I cannot make you stand firm.” I felt the Lord saying to me, “Jill, I can’t make you a writer unless you believe you are. You know I have spoken it over you, so why are you not standing firm on it?”
Luke 1: 35-38
35 The angel replied, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the baby to be born will be holy, and he will be called the Son of God. 36 What’s more, your relative Elizabeth has become pregnant in her old age! People used to say she was barren, but she has conceived a son and is now in her sixth month.37 For the word of God will never fail.[g]”
38 Mary responded, “I am the Lord’s servant. May everything you have said about me come true.” And then the angel left her.
I think about Mary who at first, like me, was confused and disturbed by the Lord’s revelation in her life. But as her conversation with the angel of the Lord ended, she responded with faith, believing it would be done as he said.
We become what we believe, if what we believe comes from the Lord. Ultimately, the Lord will have His way. Because His purposes prevail, we can try with all our might, with no avail, to become something that God says we were never meant to be. Our wrestle with unbelief is really nothing other than distrust in the Lord. And eventually, this distrust will generate distress in our lives.
Knowing the path the Lord is asking you take doesn’t mean knowing its destination. That’s why it’s a journey of faith, and having a firm faith will make you fit for the journey, as well as more fruitful. With God, what seems preposterous to us is practicable to Him. So, I am choosing to have faith like Mary and say to the Lord, “I am your servant. May everything you said about me come true.”
How about you? Yes, you! Is God asking you to have the faith of Mary as well? What waters has God clearly parted in your life, and yet, you’re still stuck on the shore, afraid to cross because of unbelief? What task is He asking you to do? Maybe, it’s a calling or a promise He is speaking over you. It’s time to trade your unbelief for trust and stand firm on your faith, so that He can fulfill His purposes in your life. I pray, sweet friend, that today is the day you stand firm and believe you are who God says you are!